That’s me – confused.<\/p>\n
I thought I’d started getting my head together but it seems I’ve not. Well, maybe I have – it might be everyone else…<\/p>\n
As anyone who reads this blog knows, Harriett and I aren’t together any longer. That isn’t to say we don’t see each other at all – we’re best friends and probably see each other 3 or 4 times a week (usually a few drinks are involved too).<\/p>\n
Anyway, I met a woman, got on well and have been out with her 3 times – taking her to dinner tomorrow night \ud83d\ude42 The weirdest thing about all this is, until Harriett mentioned it, I hadn’t even thought about sleeping with her – we get on well together, have a laugh, no uncomfortable silences etc. That’s not to say I’m not attracted to her – she’s lovely (will post a picture at some point) – I think I’ve matured with age, and no longer do I have to prove myself by bedding women in the quickest time possible (personal record is 20 minutes from meeting someone to getting her into bed – yes, it was impressive to me at the time)<\/p>\n
I mentioned all this to Harriett as that’s what friends do, and she seemed pleased for me. Then I get a couple of strange texts.<\/p>\n
Basically, I have no idea what she (Harriett) wants from me – as far as I can tell, she wants me to be happy, but that’s NOT to include other women…<\/p>\n
So here I am, back to the “don’t have a clue what’s going on” stage. Is Harriett being:<\/p>\n
1) Just unfair to me.
\n2) Very bad at telling me it’s me she wants?
\n3) — Space for rent —<\/p>\n
Why is there no manual for life?<\/p>\n
On a different note, I get claustrophobic in enclosed spaces (where else would you get it?), so I tend to avoid lifts (although I can now ride in one without panicking too much), caves etc.<\/p>\n
So last night Dennis asked me if I’d like to watch a film with him, his missus, and a couple of friends. I figured it’d make a change from getting drunk, so I went along.<\/p>\n
The film was ‘The Cave’ or something similar. I managed to watch about 20 minutes before I had to leave – I was getting so stressed out watching these scenes where people were in these water-filled caves squeezed into tiny spaces – it’s made me shake just thinking about it again.<\/p>\n
So I went and had some beer – as you do.<\/p>\n
She doesn’t read my blog (as far as I know), so I can say this here without being told off:<\/p>\n
Harriett, I love you – you know that. I’m gutted we’re not together, but happy we’re really good friends. I think about you a lot of the time and miss you so much when I’m doing things alone (not THAT – keep it clean \ud83d\ude09 ), but I’m not a monk. I’ve (grudgingly) accepted you’re seeing someone else, you have to do the same for me – or tell me what you really want.<\/p>\n
Oh yeah, today’s the day the septics fuck up again<\/span> vote in the new leader of the empire<\/span> president. Do me (and the rest of the world) a favour eh? DON’T FUCK IT UP AGAIN!<\/strong><\/p>\n Rik – I’ll email you later when I get home, but January sounds like a fun day…I’m in \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" That’s me – confused. I thought I’d started getting my head together but it seems I’ve not. Well, maybe I have – it might be everyone else… As anyone who reads this blog knows, Harriett and I aren’t together any longer. That isn’t to say we don’t see each other at all – we’re best friends and probably see each other 3 or 4 times a week (usually a few drinks are involved too). Anyway, I met a woman, got on well and have been out with her 3 times – taking her to dinner tomorrow night \ud83d\ude42 The weirdest […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[130,137,167],"class_list":["post-415","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ramblings","tag-claustrophobia","tag-confused","tag-dinner"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sneesh.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/415","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sneesh.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sneesh.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sneesh.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sneesh.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=415"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/sneesh.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/415\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sneesh.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=415"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sneesh.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=415"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sneesh.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=415"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}